It is one of those nights that I just can't sleep. It seems like nothing I do makes me sleepy. I laid down with Scott for awhile since he will be getting up and leaving early in the morning and I won't see him again until I get home from work on Monday. I also want to really enjoy my 2 days off because next week is a 6 day week and I will only get one day off. I hate that I know this will mess up my routine as I usually try to keep it, but for some reason have no desire to sleep. I hate when I have these nights but what can I do? Warm shower didn't work, watching tv did nothing. Laying my head on his chest had no effect. I get so frustrated when I can't sleep. I feel like I am anticipating something and yet there really is nothing to anticipate except some cleaning tomorrow....oh the joy!
Today sucked so badly at work! It drives me insane how I can get my ass chewed for not being able to finish my job properly because someone else didn't do their job. UGH! End of month really sucks, and I get it's a very stressful time, but sometimes people need to realize that if they don't do their job then it doesn't just effect them.
I called the Dr's office because they didn't call me as promised. When I called the office lady attempted to tell me that I didn't talk to her yesterday...uhm...there is only 3 girls in that office, I think I remember very well who I talked to. So she says I'll go talk to them and call you by the end of the day...can you guess who didn't call me?!?! That really pissed me off as well today. Why can't people just do their jobs and do what they say? I told her yesterday and I told her today, I'm in some serious pain and tired of living like this. I just want to be out of pain for one full day.
On a brighter note: today is Friday which means I have the next 2 days off. I love the weekends, and next week is really gonna suck since it's my 6 day work week. It is so hard to have only 1 day off in a week. I don't like it very much but I do like having the over time on my paycheck.
I've decided to do another blog just for day to day living. I feel that venting, expressing, sharing, bragging, and chit chatting are the things that help us get through life. So this will be a blog for all those and whatever may come to mind. So to start for today: Complaining day! Work was fine, big boss took the day off and the work atmosphere was so much more relaxed I loved it! No of course this isn't my complaint but had to throw the good out there first. My back, it was killing me today. I was hurting so bad tears were just welling up in my eyes. I've taken about 18 ibuprofen today trying to make it bearable, but it didn't work. I'm out of pain meds, which I'll be going to get filled back up here as soon as dinner is done. I went to the Dr about this lump on my back in July. It all started in February...Scott and I went bowling, the next morning when I woke up, I couldn't move my right arm or my head without excruciating pain. I thought maybe it was just a pulled muscle so I sucked it up. Then I left to FL for a while so the lump and pain was put on the back burner. July came and I just couldn't handle the pain any longer, so I went to the Dr's. They did and x-ray...nothing. They did a CT scan....nothing. They did an MRI...nothing. Did a bone scan to check for bone cancer....yep you guessed it NOTHING! Yet here I sit with this lump still on my back and still in terrible pain. The lump starts right where your neck and back come together and goes down to about the bottom of my shoulder blades. I look like I'm hunch backed. They have ruled out infection, inflammation, and cancer. They had me on anti-inflammatories, anti-biotics and gave me cortizone shots. Nothing has worked. So last time I went in after the bone scan she said she was going to send me to a specialist...but I never heard from her. I started a new job so once again, put it on the back burner, but today I'm hurting so terribly. I called the Dr's office to see what specialist they had wanted me to see, only to find out that she never put anything in my file about me going to a specialist. Knowing Dr's the way we all do they will want me to come in for an appt so they can get more money just to tell me what type of specialist they want me to see. Sorry, just really really frustrated and in a lot of pain.