Thursday, September 23, 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 07

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Well I'm a mom so can you figure out the answer to this question? My kids...they make my life worth living.

My parents made my life worth living for. Their love, and faith in each and everyone of us kids was more than any one child could ever ask for.

Between my kids and my parents they are my whole reason for living. Without a single one of them, I wouldn't be the person I am today. They have all at one point or another saved my life.

My parents never gave up on me. It didn't matter what wrong I did, they never gave up hope that I would become a better person. Because of them I never gave up on myself.

Then there was the partying life style I had as a teen, never caring about another person, or how they felt, or the impact my actions may have had on them. Then I held my daughter for the first time and I realized everything I do will impact her life. She saved me.

My son...when I was 10 weeks pregnant w/ him the Dr told me I had cancer. He urged me to have an abortion saying that the hormones can make cancer spread. Not me, I was not going to take this childs life before it had a chance to live it. I chose to carry him. I had my son in November, a few weeks later I was taking care of the cancer. I knew he had saved me...if I wouldn't have gotten pregnant I would have never gone to the Dr's.

They make my life worth living, they make every breath worth taking.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

My Apologies...

I'm so sorry I have been MIA for so long. I have so much going on in my life, and I always said I wanted my blog to be cheerful, not full of complaints and since that is all I have these days I decided to take a break. I really do miss you all, so much. I hope soon I can get back in the swing of things, but for now my blogging will be limited to the time that I have at work. My work internet is very picky and will only let me on to some blogs. One day I may be able to access that blog, the next not. I don't understand it, but since they don't pay me to blog I'm not going to complain. Just know that if I can get to your blog I will do my best.

On a brighter note we did find out yesterday that Lexi's ROTC class will be having a Christmas Ball. I'm so excited for her, and I can't wait to go dress shopping. This is gonna be fun! I said I couldn't wait for her to go to prom, but she's got 2 more years for that, so now I get to do this!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 6

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Wow, I think this is an easy one. I hope that I never have to bury one of my children. I don't know that I could live if something every happened to one of them. The thought alone makes me cry.
I can remember the day I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. It was October 18, 1994...I was...haha you thought I was going to tell you my age didn't ya! Anyway, I was scared, I didn't know what I was going to do. I was young, just a baby myself. How was I going to care for a baby? As time went by and my belly grew, I became more fearful. Could I love a child the way they deserved to be loved? Could I be a good mom?
Then it happened...I went into labor, and I was terrified. All those questions came rushing back. I wasn't just going to be carrying around this baby in my belly anymore. She would be born and she would depend on me. I was scared to death, and not ready for it. When I finally had her, when she let out that first cry, my heart exploded. Suddenly I was a mom, and I found out what unconditional love was. When they put her in my arms, I cried. I cried how could I have ever questioned. Being a mom, the love that explodes in your heart, comes so easily.
When I got pregnant with my second, I again freaked, didn't know what I was going to do, how I was going to make it. Then I held my son in my arms, and there was no doubt in my mind that God had blessed me with the two most beautiful and perfect children.
I never want to lose them, ever!

Monday, September 6, 2010

Happy Labor Day!
I hope you all have had a fantastic weekend, w/ lots of family, food and fun.

Monday Minute

This week our guest host is Evonne from Jules Out Loud

1. If you could interview any famous person, dead or alive, who would it be?  What would you ask?
I think want to talk to Marilyn Monroe. I think she was an amazingly strong woman, and I want to know where she found that strength at.

2.  You have to give up one thing for a month.  What would it be - car, guilty pleasure (ie. food, drink, fav. tv show), or sex?
That depends on what month it is. If it's October, I'll give up Big Brother. If it's January, I'll give up Christmas. LOL
I'm trying really hard to think of something I could/would give up for a month. Am I getting paid for this? Or am I just doing it for shits and giggles? I can't give up my car, I need it to get back and forth to work, and I live too far out in the country to think about biking it. Oh wait, I know...I'll give up chocolate. If you know me, you know how hard that would be. But leave my Mt Dew alone, I would fight for that.

3.  Is there a word/phrase you say that you are made fun of for?  If so, what is it?
Yes, I say warter, warsh, and I don't even know how to explain to you how I say drawer, but I get made fun of it. I'm sure there are sayings that I say that I get made fun of for, I just can't think of them right now.

4. Which is a stronger emotion: Anger or Love?
Ok so I came up with this question and I don't know how to answer it. I want to say Love is, because love can conquer all right? Or can it? Anger can take over a person completely and have a direct impact on everyone in their life even if they don't mean for it to. So which is stronger? I'm gonna let y'all debate that, and then decide...LOL Is that cheating or what? I'll post it tomorrow after reading all responses and let you know what my final answer was, and how I came to the conclusion.

5. Where was your first job?
My first job was babysitting. I was 12 years old and I used to babysit the cutest little girl. I can remember being so darn scared at night, but trying to be a big girl because I was watching a kid. What I wouldn't give to be a teen again!

Friday, September 3, 2010

Woohoo - It's FRIDAY!

I really couldn't be any happier for this day to be here. To make it better, I get a 3 day weekend. Just wish I could spend one of those days in bed all day be waited on. Oh the dreams I dream!
Not only is it Friday, but that means it's time for 5Q Friday!
Rules for Five Question Friday: Copy and paste the following questions to your blog post, answer them, then watch for the linky post to appear on Friday morning, at which time you "linky up"! If you don't have a blog feel free to answer the questions in the comments!

1. What do you do when you have time to yourself?
Well I like to read, blog, blog design, play w/ my dogs, take a hot bath, sing at the top of my lungs, cry, laugh, enjoy the silence, and the list could go on. I really need a by myself day right now.

2. When you look out your kitchen window, what do you see?
My willow tree!
Isn't she a beauty!

3. Who/What would you want to be reincarnated as?
Nothing. Living this life once is enough for me.

4. What is your biggest pet peeve about other people's kids?
There are so many. I don't know I can pick just one. But if they are at my house, it would be climbing all over my stuff. But it's more lack of parenting then it is the kid that is my pet peeve.

5. Regular or Diet soda?
Regular please! I can't stand the bitter taste of diet. 

Thursday, September 2, 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 5 - Hope

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

The one thing I want to do in my life is establish an animal rescue. It is something I am so passionate about. Something I really want to do. It's one thing that I know will make me feel satisfaction. I think it will make me feel whole. I have stated many times, I want to save this world, one dog at a time.
Opening a rescue would not only save many animals lives, but I think it would complete and save mine. I know there is a huge financial cost. When the time is right, I will put so much savings into that. I know that time will not be until my kids are grown. They obviously come first. But second is my love for animals. 

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Puppy Mills

Usually on Wednesday I do a product review. Right now I want to bring something else to light, that is much more meaningful to me. As you all should know I'm an animal lover. There isn't a thing in this world I wouldn't do for an animal. So today I want to give you information on puppy mills and share with you a heart wrenching experience I went through.

This is an example of a puppy mill. This is the horrible conditions these helpless dogs are forced to live in!

 These dogs are crammed together, bred countless times, and when they aren't able to breed anymore, they are put down. So what is a puppy mill:

*The above information (in bold) is courtesy of The Humane Society.*

About 5 years ago our little dog Rusty ran away. She was a Jack Russell, as smart as they come. Hubs took her out to go potty, he walked in the house to grab a cup of coffee and right back out. Rusty was gone! We searched for her all day, we looked every free minute we had for 3 months. I was heart broken. Cried constantly, I loved this dog! We called the animal shelters, we asked everyone in the surrounding neighborhoods, we posted posters, we put an ad in the newspaper. I never got my baby back. 
We were on our way to a weekend camping trip when we stopped at an animal store. Of course I can't walk in there without falling absolutely in love with every single puppy in there. But there was one, who yelled my name. He was a pug, cute as a button. I had to have him. The owners of the store told us he was born w/ out a collar bone and couldn't be rough housed with. Well I don't get my dogs to beat them up, and I know how to be careful.

We had Doc about 2 weeks, and well you know how quickly I fall in love and get attached. I think it takes me about .03 seconds. Well I came home from work one day, a little early, and looked for Doc. Typically he would come running to greet me. That day he did not. So I found him laying on his bed and he barely looked up to see me. I went into panic mode, something was wrong with my new baby. I called hubs at work and told him I had to take Doc to the vet. I'm sure he could tell by the panic in my voice that he needed to go. So I got Doc to the vet, and she's asking me if he had his shots, I say no I was scheduled the next day to come in to get them. She wouldn't run any tests on him, he had water around his brain, and she knew I would be blowing money. She knew he wouldn't survive. She gave me some stuff that would perk him up a bit, and sent us home. I had convinced myself I would have a few months with him, and they would be the best few months of his life. 
The next morning Scott woke me up, and told me Doc was barely breathing. I knew he would never joke like that, but I couldn't / wouldn't believe it. I jumped out of bed and ran to Doc. He lay there, barely breathing, looking at me with his big eyes. I picked him up, hugged him, and told him I loved him over and over. That it was ok, he could go and be a happy healthy puppy who could run and play. That I would always miss him and carry him in my heart. About 15 min later Doc died in my arms. It was 2 years to the day that my mom died as I held her hand. 
It turns out the animal store I purchased him from, bought all their dogs from a puppy mill. I was furious and was not going to allow another person unknowingly purchase a dog from them, just to live the heart breaking moment I had. I sat here crying my eyes out as I write still stings! So I called the news, I called the paper, and I called the Humane Society. I was on a mission to shut down the store and the puppy mill. To bring information to the public about these horrible places. I succeeded in shutting down the puppy mill, the store is still in business. 
So I say to you, if you know of a puppy mill, please call your local Humane Society. If you are purchasing from someone, know where that dog came from, and only purchase from reputable breeders, or go to a shelter and adopt a dog.