Tuesday, September 7, 2010

30 Days of Truth ~ Day 6

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Wow, I think this is an easy one. I hope that I never have to bury one of my children. I don't know that I could live if something every happened to one of them. The thought alone makes me cry.
I can remember the day I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. It was October 18, 1994...I was...haha you thought I was going to tell you my age didn't ya! Anyway, I was scared, I didn't know what I was going to do. I was young, just a baby myself. How was I going to care for a baby? As time went by and my belly grew, I became more fearful. Could I love a child the way they deserved to be loved? Could I be a good mom?
Then it happened...I went into labor, and I was terrified. All those questions came rushing back. I wasn't just going to be carrying around this baby in my belly anymore. She would be born and she would depend on me. I was scared to death, and not ready for it. When I finally had her, when she let out that first cry, my heart exploded. Suddenly I was a mom, and I found out what unconditional love was. When they put her in my arms, I cried. I cried how could I have ever questioned. Being a mom, the love that explodes in your heart, comes so easily.
When I got pregnant with my second, I again freaked, didn't know what I was going to do, how I was going to make it. Then I held my son in my arms, and there was no doubt in my mind that God had blessed me with the two most beautiful and perfect children.
I never want to lose them, ever!


  1. Oh girl, I could have written this post. I feel the exact same way. Nothing is more important and precious to me than my children.

  2. I honestly don't know if I could survive the loss of one of my children. Seriously.

  3. Oh your heart really does explode with love the moment they cry...lovely post:)

  4. Yup, there's a general concensus on that one!
    Good for you for doing the 30 Days of Truth. I'm always so impressed by those who are tackling it. I'm a little chicken blogger who doesn't like to delve deep!

  5. I alwo feel this way! Never do I even want to think about it.

  6. I worry too about that. I don't know how people carry on when they have lost a child.

    And I never want to know.

  7. I can't wait for the day when I feel that my heart could actually explode. I've been TTC for over a year now, and can only imagine the joy, but also that fear that you must have. I've had a friend who had lost a child, and I could see how pained, and still is, she was - I could never imagine. No parent should ever have to experience that.