Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The Road I Never Wanted To Take

I never imagined that after being together for 7 1/2 years, after 3 years of marriage I would be traveling the road of divorce. I am so broken right now. I can't even begin to tell you what it's like losing my best friend. I can't imagine what my life will be like without him in it. I can't imagine living away from him. I don't know where I will find this strength to go on. To put on a happy face because I have to for my children and my work.

I feel so abandoned. I feel anger and resentment. I feel hurt and broken. All these different emotions at one time is enough to make a person go crazy. It's just that after having someone beside you, loving you, and then losing them rips your heart out. Destroys your dreams of happily ever after. I thought that's what we'd be. I thought we'd grow old together and share many more memories. I thought I would always have him.

So if I am missing for a while, if I'm not posting much or visiting your blogs, please understand that once I find the strength I will. Right now I don't want to read about happy marriages, how great life is for them. I just can't after my world has been crushed and turned upside down.

For you Scott, because I know you read this, you will ALWAYS have my heart, and I will always love you. I hope you find what you are looking for.

19 comments:

  1. Melissa, I am so sorry to hear this! I completely understand that you don't want to be online! Hang in there!!!
    Vanessa
    http://daily-dilly.blogspot.com

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  2. Melissa--I love you. You know I am here for you. I'm so sorry. xoxoxoxoxo

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  3. Oh poppit, I'm so sorry your having to go through this, my thoughts are with you and your family. We will be here when you need us, take care.

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  4. I am so sorry Melissa, I am sending you lots of hugs and love. I wish I could make you feel better

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  5. You know I'm here too Melissa...I'm heartbroken for you...and I'd like to say some really rude things towards your husband...but I'll be nice and do that privately.

    Love you...be strong babe...I know you are!

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  6. I'm so sorry Melissa - I'm here for you along with all these other wonderful ladies. You take your time and we'll be here when you come back to the land of blogging.

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  7. I am so sorry you have to go through this, I just want you to know that even though you don't know me I have been through this and I understand how devastated you feel. I won't say that with time you will get over it, because that won't make you feel better. Just know that my thoughts are with you. Hang in there.

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  8. Oh Mellissa, I am so sorry to hear this especially since you are sad about this decision. I hope you have some people to support you in this painful time. Hugs my friend!

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  9. I am so terribly sorry! This past month, I have had my own relationship issues and I completely understand what you mean when you say you don't want to read about happy marriages at the time! It just doesn't seem fair! I hope you find a way to cope with this quickly so that you can find the happiness you deserve!

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  10. Thoughts and prayers going out to you and your family! Divorce is never easy, especially when children are involved. I'm going through some nasty things with my ex over custody and it's completely destroyed me. I don't want to blog, I don't even want to get out of bed! But I actually find comfort in the support that I have been getting from other bloggers. Just remember that someone somewhere has been through, or is going through, the same thing you are. It isn't easy but you will find the strength! ~xoxo~

    Your Newest Follower,
    Melissa
    http://www.loveandpancakes.com/

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  11. My heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry. Please, if you need an ear...reach out to those who can listen and support you. xoxox

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  12. I'm so sorry, my dear! I know that this is a very difficult time and my heart aches for you. Hang in there. It's tough but you will make it through.

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  13. Oh Melissa, I'm SO sorry to hear this! It seemed like things were going good with you guys from your posts. I'm sending you hugs. XOXO

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  14. Obvoiusly I have no idea what has gone on in your marriage. I am very sorry to hear this. I will pray for strength for you and your family.

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  15. Oh, darling, I am so sorry to read this sobering message. My heart and prayers will be with you through this time.

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  16. You don't know me...but I feel your pain. I am going thru my own journey on a road I never thought I would take after nearly 20 years of marriage and 21 together. Hugs and Blessings to you and yours.

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