Thursday, June 17, 2010

He Makes Me Happy

Ok suck it up people, I'm about to have a sappy moment. If you want to judge me on this then....shew....go away!

I love this boy, I love him with all my heart! He makes me laugh, he makes me happy, and sometimes he can frustrate the hell out of me, but mostly he makes me feel so loved.

Last July I made the decision to let him live with his dad. He has always wanted to, because him and dad have a lot in common. Because life is easier at dads and he doesn't have as many rules or chores to do. How could I let him go? How could I let him live away from me? It wasn't an easy all.

My baby boy has three very different sides to him. There is the sweet, loving, funny, well mannered, compassionate, caring, enthusiastic, playful, and everything great you can think of. 
Then there is the bad side, the side that is disrespectful, and I mean beyond normal child. He got in trouble, and got bad grades.
There was the side that was physically mean. He'd hurt himself and others.

Since he's been with his dad, got his way, my sweet child has come back out. He got A honor roll the whole school year. He is really happy, and doesn't get in trouble. He started to get in trouble when he first went to his dads. His dad realized really fast that I wasn't just being mean, and he put a stop to it. Letting him go was so hard, but it's made him happy. He loves being with his dad. I don't know if it's because he didn't see his dad much before. Barely talked to him. He'd go 2 months sometimes without seeing or hearing from him. Now he has him all the time, and he's happy. It breaks my heart so much that he's happier at his dads, but it makes me happy that he is.

He was with me for the past 10 days, I've missed having him home with me all the time. He went back to his dads so they can go on their vacation, and he can spend some time with his sister while she's with his dad. Then he'll come back for the rest of the summer. Having him home with me, then go back to his dads is killing me. I hate not having him with me. I see him every weekend, so it's not like I don't see him, but weekends go by so fast. It seems like as soon as he gets here, he's going back home. I love having my sweet boy back, seeing him happy, and his hugs again.

Last week, he gave me a big hug and says "Thanks for being the best Mom in the whole world" Melted my heart, made me cry, and then he says "But ya don't have to be a baby about it!" Thanks baby boy....I love you to!


  1. He is growing up so fast. I'm glad you have your sweet Brayden back.

  2. How completely unselfish of you to let him go when you miss him so much.
    Enjoy your handsome guy.

  3. Oh sweetie, that is so beautiful! You made the ultimate sacrfice and I commend you for that. You rock! So glad he's doing well. Love you girl!

  4. I have a feeling that one day I will be faced with this same delimma...your tough lady :)

  5. Your sappy is the sweetest thing I've read today. I love your mama love.

  6. My hat is off to you for working so hard to keep your son in his Dads life and by doing so you have earned more respect and Love from your Son, I know it's hard but as you have pointed out it is the right thing.

    I am proud of you.

  7. I can't imagine the courage it took to let your son go live with his Dad. But at a certain age, a boy needs to be around an old bull who will know his horns off as and when needed. But they never stop needing their Mom. Mom died when I was 43. And I realized that for the first time in my life, I was an orphan. Time goes way too fast. Best of luck enjoying the summer.